Why I feel enlightened...

Why do I feel I am special and know more about life then normal people? Because though I have not seen most of the Washington's white stone palace's secrets. However, I seen enough to know that on some issues the public are not aware of what is going on over their heads. What they don't realize us that deeper then party ties there is a bond inside the government to stand united. When it is a foreign war we are not so quick to respond and if its on our land we boa up and beat our fists. And just so you wouldn't want all your secrets to be known to all. It would dissatisfy some, enrage others, over power some, destroy others because of this those secrets are kept by some, the ones with a need to know. For most life is comfortable and happy. But for others it's not. They don't want you to know everything because then you wouldn't stay happy living on a dime and working so much. Sometimes life sucks knowing you know something and you can't tell anyone. Which is why I enjoy drill. For once I can you sit an talk to other people that know just as much of the world going on around us as I do. Do I know a lot of crazy secrets? No I don't. There is so much more I don't know. But what I get to see isn't censored and its looked at more i depth and analyzed. My eyes open to the whole world. Not just the ground beneath my feet. My sources are not vetted by news media interests. I read the raw stuff. It's not sugar coated or vague. It's truth. What the public gets is sugar coated lies or half truths. They may not be huge secrets but they are enough to make you become enlightened.

Maying I should do intel

I had a thought the other day. I love being intel. I love my job of knowing, thinking, analyzing, and portraying that to our nations troops and commanders. I am the extra security for our country. I handle the secrets. I almost want to be an intelligence analyst. I wonder if maybe instead of being a physical therapist perhaps I should just try to be an intelligence analyst. I would what degree that would be?

No friends

I know what my problem is of why I have no friends. It just dawned on me. I have always had very few close girl friends. Most of my friends have been boys. Since I became married all my male friends I had became his friends. I haven't made any new ones lately. I just don't connect with the girls and the boys I steer clear of entirely. It's so hard to find a good female friend that I can connect with. And I'm not comfortable having a male friend. I'm just scared that the friendship/affair line is to easy crossed and I don't want to chance it. Because for me befriending someone means that I love something about them and they give something back to me. Friendship based on admiration can lead to attraction. Foolish attraction though only meant to satisfy you urges for a short moment.  

Don't be ashamed not to know why you are here

The wind doesn't even know where it's going or why it's here. How would you expect someone like me to know this? To know why I am here. No one here knows the answers. Maybe there isn't an answer. Maybe we are the question and it is up to us to create the answer. Lets take this one step at a time.

Did you ever notice?

Did you ever notice that as you get older your parents start becoming real to you. They start to actually open up as people and friends rather then just people you knew by design. Blood doesn't make you stronger, love does. 

Top Secret Classified: The Secret to World Peace

Sometimes I get this feeling were I have nothing better to do but just think and be. To just exist. How simple a thought could be so hard. And yesterday I picked a rose and a bee by it stung me. Maybe he was telling me that I should preserve Mother Earth. When so much as a single rose can hold so much beauty, in the same way the whole world is beautiful and every single thing living beautiful in some  degree. If we can find that degree in the people around us we will finally have peace.

Being a cool parent

You children may not like you right now but they will thank you when they are older. In today's world it's ok to be a little strict. It can be the difference between a successful child or one that runs into problems. I think instead of trying to be a cool parent we should all just focus on being loving ones.